tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35670419696339306022024-03-14T05:18:05.395+08:00那人走時只有星光送他benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.comBlogger288125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-51776977275816705302013-11-02T00:21:00.003+08:002013-11-02T00:23:06.421+08:00自由<div class="FreeForm">
<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">我在系辦外躊躕,不時往百葉帘內窺看。後來嫌氣悶,又踱回那兩張布告板前,一張張研究。駐校作家們留下筆跡,或蒼勁騰飛,或猶如初識文字的書寫練習,認真又純粹的,留下對文學、校園、學生的速寫。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">從只字片語中解讀一個人幾乎做不到,但作家便有這個本事,把瑣碎煉作詩籤,靜候善男善女檢視,再一語命中靶心。印象深刻的有陳玉慧:文學教會我的事,如何與孤獨共處;孫梓評:原本破碎,文學讓我趨向完整(大意如此)。作家投射過來的光影如此遙遠陌生,以致我能夠接收的只有點點螢光。文學是這樣子的嗎?文學是救贖,是歡欣和哀愁的泉源?甚至有:“我在世上茫然無依,唯有文學收留了我”的肺腑感想?他是不是也教導了他們,什麼是尖銳,什麼是稜角,什麼時候是一時膽怯,什麼時候是單純想逃?</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">我沒有這般福分。我心頭一熱擁抱了他,他卻回以我一片廣袤的荒涼。越敏感越不錯過最微小的痛苦,對日常的快樂反倒麻木不仁。文學讓我築起困住自己的迷宮,我曾想像高原茂密的針葉林,也曾涉下冰凍之河,吸下痛徹心扉的一口氣。過度的獨處讓我變得透明,容易遺忘和被遺忘。從來面對的只是自己。你必須再誠實一些,再誠實一些。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">而我不情願。文學令人無所遁形。這一點讓我非常沮喪</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">那些愉悅和甜美,都是他們的。我繼續瀏覽布告,不再澆灌太多心思。直至我看見他寫下的字。有些拙劣的筆觸,卻又帶著執拗和天真</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">讓自己自由</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">五個字佔據了大部份空白。“讓自己自由”。我一遍又一遍的默念。他竟能如此坦蕩的消化和感受,與他站於同一陣線,並理所當然地寫下他與他的親近和昇華。文學的最終目的是自由,是我始料未及的。他給予我的荒涼,會不會只是個強弩之末的嚴冬</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">?</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">等待春暖雪融</span><span lang="ZH-TW" style="font-family: 新細明體;">,</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">新世紀就要破土鑽出。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">終於你推開系辦門,我們離開人社院。誰也不開腔說話。安靜很好。容許安靜,也是一種自由</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span></div>
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benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-33156659641262233422013-11-02T00:20:00.000+08:002013-11-02T00:23:17.117+08:00台北分手<div class="FreeForm">
<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">我在機上回頭望,地下微光星羅棋布,蜿蜒如地表裂紋分岔,岩漿沸騰,熱氣奮上半空,又疲軟地降落</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">銀河逐漸朦朧</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">氣氛肅穆。我理應聽見自己的心跳。肩膀仍未習慣空窗,他們擔著隱形的重量</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">台北至花蓮,列車一路作梗。時而喘息搖晃,時而謹慎平行。外面的世界變幻莫測,剛還是鬱鬱叢林,一穿隧道,海水大開大闊。即便</span><span lang="ZH-TW" style="font-family: 新細明體;">暫時</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">與世隔</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 新細明體;">絕</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">,你</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 宋体;">脸</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">上</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">欣喜的神色,仿佛已聞見太平洋</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 宋体;">风</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">的腥甜。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">這片土地是翡翠色的堆積</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">,</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">你就要在比較淺的地方生活。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">九月行進中,但秋天遲遲不來</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">我蹬著你的自行車,經過人社館,上橋,繞開湖畔餐廳。刻意騎偏走道,枯葉畢畢剝剝。我碾過的是我自己。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">等待是職責,是賦予與被賦予的總和</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">等你下課,我們再一起回家。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">原先的家不帶四季冷熱,一味的大暑。我們不愛,他卻將我們緊緊系起來</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">“想回家</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">”你一邊整理床鋪,一邊想;你一邊整理筆記,一邊想;一邊睡,一邊不睡的,想</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">深夜悶雷滾滾,你才驚覺。來到這個連雷聲也大相徑庭的地方,會不會是個可避開的誤差</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">?我</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 宋体;">们</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">都</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">忘了,誤差是時間的編排,而</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">抉</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 宋体;">择</span><span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">往往不遂人願</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">你留下,我離開。本因如此,你不要曲解他的旨意</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">陽光毫無止歇的跡象,你我一前一後步出宿舍。你取了車,似笑非笑的問。我掂掂那重量,只是搖搖頭</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 华文宋体;">臨行間瞥見你遙遠恍惚的目光。我攜帶他,沿著海線與山線,回到桃園。在熙攘的城市迷了路</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="font-family: 华文宋体;">。</span><span style="font-family: Times;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-31848331643351169982013-09-19T22:16:00.000+08:002013-09-19T22:16:28.478+08:00亡命奔騰<br />
<span style="color: #444444;">我怔立巷口,搞不清楚鍾沅到底怎麼回事。忽地,自漆黑的馬路彼端傳來一聲驚天動地的呼喚:“童素心!”鍾沅扯開嗓子沒命放聲:“童素心!我——想——你!”</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;">我木然站在原處,極目凝望黑暗盡頭,隱約可見鍾沅定定不動的形影。我緩緩張開嘴,也想對那頭的鍾沅大喊。聲至喉間卻窒窒難出——那一切曾經委屈、憂懼、恓惶無措的,又蔓延周身,將我牢牢捆得動彈不得。</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;">-- -- 曹麗娟《童女之舞》</span><br />
<br />benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-66149016051412433692013-09-19T21:40:00.000+08:002013-09-20T10:04:25.515+08:00concomitant worries<br />
餐點附湯,顏料附屬幻覺。<br />
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有口難言,話語散出去,然後就是無止盡的守候。等待語速飛行的疲憊。<br />
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一隻能量耗盡的蜂。他從未如此期待隕落。<br />
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這樣安靜很好。我不斷申述著。這樣安靜真的很好。即使附帶大片悲傷的沼澤,但他仍舊以百年寂靜為許諾安頓了我。<br />
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我篤信不疑,於是放肆播放搖滾樂,抵抗中秋。<br />
<br />benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-18754379818471399712013-09-19T19:54:00.002+08:002013-09-19T19:54:38.994+08:00繳械的那一天<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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終於完整闔上吳繼文《天河撩亂》,寫得真好,像涉入一條自顧流淌的河,我對他尚有一絲畏縮,他卻以他的體溫完全包容了我。</div>
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適合降落的日子,接踵而來的往往是另一趟飛行。這樣的生活讓人無從綢繆,與其慌張,不如欺瞞自己,假裝仰頸期盼。反正再美的景致和人,都只是經過。</div>
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benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-25233602775442679182013-08-17T01:22:00.001+08:002013-11-02T00:14:43.050+08:00離別賦<br />
從沒有一次的別離讓我如此震動,放眼望處皆是時間。尤其最後相聚的時刻。我特別留心他的舉動和言談,不過多,但也沒有收斂的,只是它們消失得那麼快,像盥洗盆裡迅速溜走的漩渦。我在鏡前愣著,心想:周圍實在太安靜了。<br />
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我們在大學認識。各自攜帶過往和歷史。後來,大家結黨成社,總是一簇簇的走。你有些自豪地說:我們來招自己的兵馬。夜晚我們攤開班級名單,挑選合適的喝茶對象。依據你的說法,這是插旗,要在這裡站得住腳,就一定要在領土上插旗。很多時候我只是笑,這一切對於我都那麼新鮮,便毫不猶豫的全盤接受。前方漫漫,有你的引導,心底也覺得踏實。<br />
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你並非是完美無缺的。你有遠大的理想,但也為此焦躁不安。那種從容面下的緊張感,只向親近的人釋放。畢業典禮結束的幾個月,我們成為室友。你一邊工作,一邊撰寫碩士研究計劃。遙不可望的台灣留學生涯看似逐字成型。但此刻誰也無法預知,我們的一生究竟是注定在原地打轉,或是遠遠的飄蕩,至死方才停止下來。
我仍舊滯留原地,等待你的出國消息。陌生的情緒湧上來,完全顛覆我備好的局促祝福。從今以後,我幻想你的脫胎換骨,成為更好的人,同時花了很大的氣力不低頭,不憎惡自己的平庸。距離因此變得巨大,沮喪的是,這不僅僅是空間上的距離。我無法明言失去什麼,然而眼前的黑洞悄悄咬噬一切,原來從無到有,終究要回歸至初。 所有諾言的不實現,都歸咎時間。<br />
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看完電影《心靈捕手》,整個人惘惘的。我想我給離別找到了最好的闡釋。
“每一天我到你家接你,然後我們出去。我們喝酒說笑,這感覺很好。但你知道我一天最好的時光是什麼?大概十秒鐘,從我將車子停在路肩,直到我走近你的家門,因為我想,或許當我趨前敲門,你不會在那裡。沒有再會。沒有明天見。什麼都沒有。你就這麼走了。我知道的不多,但我很清楚。”
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我嘗試用自己的語氣描摹臨別。那一刻,你走得坦然,我亦不會佯裝不哭,不感傷。追憶喚起的越來越少。直到有一天,當我們都到了想去的地方,我會趕在時間陣亡之前,和你見面,再好好的告別。 不哭,不感傷。<br />
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(中國報|16.8.2013)benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-89658910096650241362013-08-09T21:12:00.000+08:002013-08-09T23:04:27.826+08:00不滅的夜<br />
突破現狀很難,尤其他安分,幾乎與生俱來的錯覺。你依循自己的步履,對最好的瞭然於心,不論對己對人。直到他走過來說:你其實沒那麼好,所有善意都屬私心。你的心,有個掩藏的洞。<br />
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最初只是微笑,偶爾淺嘗一些黑暗,不外飢餓、心酸。沒想過憤怒,憤怒卻取代了他。<br />
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“為什麼要揭穿連我都不曾懷疑的事?”<br />
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汲汲營營多時,就等待夢醒。理解這一點讓我非常非常的悲傷。<br />
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安靜進駐得突然 / 引爆花火些許 / 我拾起 / 很多很多割裂的光<br />
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日前從吉隆坡回來,小病小痛尾隨至今。想起來,那幾天終究是好的。輾轉換了幾次住宿,於是早晨都花在整理行囊,一日比一日沈重。頒獎典禮沒法一起坐是憾事,但也表示我們之間無需顧忌,少了一點沸騰和冷,肘撞和低語。你一直比誰都優秀,這是毋庸置疑的。<br />
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很多話來不及說。但仔細思量後才領悟,給你的話永遠說不完。一世人那麼長,我怎麼就假定,我們不會見面。你是你的世界,即便我再不想承認,我也有我的。我必須開始刻下自己的年輪,因為從此,你會在另一端看我,認真而嚴厲;我沒有勇氣回頭望。<br />
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該來的,終將航向他專屬的位置。你們當然好,不好的總是我,我不斷告誡自己,保持緘默就不會出錯。<br />
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後來發現,原來抉擇本身就是一種失誤。<br />
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昨天媽媽打電話過來說:你知道去東海岸的路?不如我們下星期不要直接回家,先繞到東海岸去。<br />
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我仍是淡漠的應答,內心實則非常激動。好吧,那就再逃一次,憑什麼抹殺自己復原的機率。況且這次,我不是一個人。<br />
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(你是一個很棒的人。是我步履不停的主因。)<br />
<br />benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-13733178841700882782013-07-30T01:19:00.003+08:002013-07-30T01:19:20.042+08:00思想的喬遷<br />
書寫的其一目的是例舉延伸的惡習,藉此檢視,剔走悄悄抽長的枝節。減去理想。前陣子信誓旦旦說了後悔的話,一下鏟除太多,反倒陷入迷思:為什麼我不憎恨自己的平庸。為什麼要親手葬送各種可能,在還可以實現的時候。但這種想法總是顯得輕浮,仿佛煙火的眷戀:想留住的再多,亦只能望上一眼。<br />
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想專心致志做好一件事,至少有所承擔。慢慢地我竟也開始喜歡這個論文題目,以及他所涉及的範疇。空間、人、地方感、城市、馬來西亞、詩。手邊資料太多只好挑著閱讀,《遇見都市:理論與經驗》很好看,雖然部分仍是似懂非懂,企盼運用時有個籠統的概念就滿足了。<br />
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Every day I come by your house and I pick you up. And we go out. We have a few drinks, and a few laughs, and it's great. But you know what the best part of my day is? For about ten seconds, from when I pull up to the curb and when I get to your door, 'cause I think, maybe I'll get up there and I'll knock on the door and you won't be there. No goodbye. No see you later. No nothing. You just left. I don't know much, but I know that. --- Good Will Hunting, 1997<br />
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每一天我到你家接你,然後我們出去。我們喝酒說笑,這感覺很好。但你知道我一天最好的時光是什麼?大概十秒鐘,從我將車子停在路肩,直到我走近你的家門,因為我想,或許當我趨前敲門,你不會在那裡。沒有再會。沒有明天見。什麼都沒有。你就這麼走了。我知道的不多,但我很清楚。<br />
<br />benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-72415971529557295142013-07-26T22:22:00.000+08:002013-07-26T22:22:57.173+08:00感動還是忘了就好<br />
現在的不開心,說出來是自打嘴巴。明明覺得自己可以是有見地,說話算話,不成功,至少有個樣板。一定有個神秘定律廁身近處,目睹什麼狼狽相就站出來笑一笑:你就這樣。<br />
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我這一生是毀了。我不斷告訴自己。一方希望別人好,一方又有些改不掉的趨光性,往往在漆黑中,奢望掘開一窖的星光。<br />
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但凡不長久的,還是忘了,對誰都好。<br />
<br />benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-21063305956905036952013-06-07T17:22:00.000+08:002013-06-07T17:24:08.829+08:00等量一直堅守等量多年,意志已不自覺的退卻。我遞出的好,分量多少自己知道,趁勢拋顆種子,盼望有天回饋我的,是等量。同樣的祈求叫囂幾年,交換幾個月的黑暗。大三是最不愉快的,因為幾乎沒有好的回憶。渾渾噩噩的和自己的空洞周旋,不斷想要為誰而改變。也毫無意外的不得人緣。至終我們僥倖談上了,總算領悟,原來一旦時間執意帶走一個人,你再怎麼接近亦無濟於事。<br />
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大師、文豪們不斷強調,一生人只要做好一件事情,就夠了。但真的夠嗎,縱觀我做事的質量數量,或許做滿一輩子都無法達標。<br />
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聽一整個下午的盧凱彤,給這首歌打碎了。我想碎得徹底一些,直到不再存念愈合。那時,應該就可以坦然大方的面對你,面對該來的貌合神離。<br />
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面子書上有人展示藏書,其中有一套完整的黃碧雲作品,一時興起也翻箱倒櫃找出自己的。這幾年間斷的搬遷讓原本缺乏整理的書籍更加雜亂無序,偶然從書桌下拉出一個塵封的袋子,果然許多早以為失蹤的書都不過是被掩埋起來。一本本堆疊,感覺既陌生又迷惑:好多書,其實並沒有讀過,至多是摩挲封皮,再念一念序言。因此也對於“順勢尖銳的看穿自己的不足”發了一陣呆,再喪氣的回到《鼠疫》:<br />
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“事實上,我們的痛苦是雙重的,首先是我們自己受的苦,其次則是我們想像不在身邊的兒子、配偶或戀人所受的苦”。<br />
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就算看懂了,看疼了又如何。我和他們是不般配的。尤其認識了許多才華橫溢的人之後,每個崛起的大陸,都是影子。我有說不完的羨慕,說不出的嫉妒,慣性低頭釘住自己,至終也沒能邁開那一步。我想,我思,我運走所有泉水,只為澆灌一朵沙漠玫瑰,也因為他的死,我遲遲沒能回過神來,看清眼前這段碎石子路,其實並不通向想像的那片海。<br />
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也許我仍會選擇等待,直到他終於飛起來了,我才能準備緩衝,不受束縛且完完整整的靜止下來。<br />
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回家之前南下吉隆坡,和阿韓到谷中城閒晃。吃飯時笑說,我們以前也吃這家,怎麼味道沒那麼好了。隨即問道:你的好吃嗎?有點甜,我不喜歡。“還是以前比較好吃”。當然,此時彼時,不能混為一談。不變的是恭和堂店員的善意提醒:五花茶是苦的哦。明知是喝了會懊惱的味道,還是執意買了,邊走邊喝,越是苦越是清醒。<br />
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隔天下午拖著胃痛買書。不知道是不是時間讓閱讀的好奇心褪掉一些,轉了兩三小時,沒有多餘收獲,依舊是一開始拿下的兩本。吳妮民《私房藥》,莫里斯卡雷姆《你就這樣幾小時的聽著雨聲》。<br />
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幫相機置入新底片的過程是快樂的,不理性不實際,但快樂。<br />
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期望到了九月,我會做出一些成績。必須趕快揮別目前懶散又不可靠的狀態,寫好小說,然後到南院搜集資料(順道把曾到此一遊的記憶挽回),再完全陷入論文的搏擊俱樂部。<br />
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喜歡有實在唱腔的搖滾樂隊,偏偏britpop太多飄忽男聲,於是第一次聽Stornoway便上癮。<br />
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世界對我,老早已無話可說,但我仍抵不住與他對話的慾望。<br />
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一個下午在臉書,被捕人數打電玩般節節上升。一夜的堅持,不夠;幾星期的黑色聚會,不夠。我只能看著燭淚一答一答掉落,只是想:這樣不夠。<br />
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一頭鑽進流言蜚語,就不得不在喧嘩中思考。眼觀身處環境,對自己的定位認知,以及張大手臂維持拋出的身姿,而非等待機遇撞入懷抱。在要求之前先付出吧,先前的委屈或許只是錯誤使然,重犯需要強大的自虐意志,我並非沒有,只是意志何必施於同一塊田,明知唯一的收獲只有無盡的失望。<br />
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畢竟你不是我獨享的秘密,我也不期許你明白,支持我的理想。但能不能少一點嘲諷,多一點關懷。即使沒有人許諾我什麼,我仍舊想執行他,我要親手執行我的未來,就算他的缺憾清晰可見,因為無人知曉而無人祝福。<br />
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關於面書我沒有疑惑,只是驚於自己對他的態度。明知禁區看了會連帶一天的煩惱,還要翻閱,揣測無關自己的人生。想念再無法無天,終究是自家事。克制不住的表態才是要人命的。但我相信,只要度過岸的另一邊,就真的自由了(好在古井不生波,年長總是一帖好藥)。<br />
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下午的電影搜尋依舊沒有收獲,想看鬥牛和大都會,念頭也一閃而逝。或許對電影語言失去興趣(我不要你給我講一個故事,完全是你的語氣和樣子),電影太自私,至少電視劇鬆動一些,少耗費精力解讀懸疑,無需甘心承受你的諷嘲,抱定我解不開謎的一臉安心。<br />
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明天給臨時召回金寶,默默地出門買火車票。幾次的經驗馴服了我,況且是自己犯下的錯。沒有抱怨。車子比外面黑。爸爸照慣例收聽愛fm,不斷稱讚吉安的節目做得好。要我多聽。但我實在沒辦法,或許節目太有人情味,他有他自己的範圍和軌跡,我沒辦法踏入其中,白光的歌聲一響,很多莫名的情緒湧上來,說不出來是什麼滋味,反正不是好的。</div>
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想要逃走的時候,家裡是最溫婉的黑洞。是我的軟弱養大了黑洞。<div>
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benedict_mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16710537045887101268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567041969633930602.post-30036415333366962582013-05-10T02:30:00.003+08:002013-05-10T02:30:26.256+08:00筆記四:你,你,和你<br />
舊遊戲讓人樂此不疲,比如拾起一本離你最近的書,打開第45頁,第一個句子代表你的情感狀態。昨天手邊的是袁哲生,今天是林俊穎。“都不是”。三個字。一目了然。<br />
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你永遠在我的前面;永遠在岸的另一邊。<br />
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“我手無寸鐵迎上去與它對決。我無所珍愛,它便無從掠奪。”—— 柯裕棻<br />
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我們都比自己認知中的,還要愛這國家一些。<br />
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在自己的房間裡,我感覺透明;在自己的房間裡,我感覺被誰提起,又忘記。<br />
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為什麼要約我看iron man?看喪屍,看槍來槍往。<br />
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好久沒有拾起一部文藝電影。<br />
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